Ben

[stoutfellow]

I apologize for not making individual replies to the outpouring of support y'all have given me. I just... find it hard.

Ben had a second bleeding episode the day after the trip to the vet, but I was able - despite his struggles - to dose him with the epinephrine, and the bleeding quickly subsided. The problem has not recurred since.

I'm a bit disturbed by quality-of-life issues. I mustn't let him get excited. That means I can't play with him; that means that, when I hear him barking at... at whatever, I have to hurry to him to calm him down; that means all kinds of things. Much of what he enjoys most is now taboo.

That's not enough to force my hand, but it bothers me.

I know that, someday soon, I will have to take him to the vet for the last time. What I don't know is, what am I watching for? What is it that will tell me that it's time? Right now, apart from slightly roughened breathing (he snores in his sleep, now), he seems normal. He isn't, I know. But....

I don't know.

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[stoutfellow.livejournal.com]

The principle is sound. The specific example, no; Ben doesn't like being brushed, for some reason. I'll need to think about the possibilities.